Sunday, December 27, 2009

明天见的约定

约定 - 光良

说好的 三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑说这是我们的考验 我们的约定

就这样 三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现 空气中吻你的脸

我还记得 我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我还记得 我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的 我更爱你了

明天见
演唱:王心凌

雨下了 又停了
泪流了 又干了
你走多久 多远了
我还在这
你说的 你忘了
可是我 还记得
手心里 紧握着
已不属于我的亲热

爱怎会输给了时间
我的耳边 再听不见
我以为永远不会变
最习惯的明天见
放手了 该回到原点
心会受伤 也能复原
我会学着自己走出从前 祝福明天

Saturday, December 26, 2009

When There Was Me and You - Vanessa Hudgen

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
'Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me feel
Like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings
With the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe
That I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
while I was falling
And I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Christmas

Christmas has past... All I did on the Christmas's eve was just talking with my relatives and went on with my wap assignment. The same for christmas. WAP assignment all the times.

When I read through people's blog saying about christmas, my heart hurt a little by little uncontrolled. It is a sad day for me perhaps. Or I am still care about how was it meant to me. It's just a sad event for me and I dont want to celebrate it. It does have a reason behind. What is it? Don't wish to tell.

WAP ASSIGNMENT
I was doing it for 3days. You know how much did I did? Oh~ I just can say, a perfect system needs lots of time. I just wish I try my best to work on it. But without database, what else can I do? Sad assignment.

Oh~Nothing else to write. bb~

Sunday, December 20, 2009

I'm suck

I realise that my friend keep on changing all the times. Oh, it's not saying that my friends are changing, that sentence means, the person who can talk to me, and the person who I can talk to, keep on changing, from A to B, B to C, and so on... Why is that happening? No idea. @@

I wasn't meant to do it... It just happen. But I enjoy it. Since I concluded that no relationship is everlasting, and so for close friendship. Wasn't it? However close is it for you with a friend, someday, there'll be an end, or become a friend who only say "hi" to each other.

I really found many frustrated cases, incidents and people. And I keep on found. Really sucks huh? Yeah... It's really sucks. Why is that I keep on telling myself there are so much bad things in this world? Because there're so many things that make my heart, my brain and my body totally, completely, entirely tired! Keep on let me see how bad is this world? Is that what I live for?

I have really no destiny. I live for life. Study for result. Play for fun. Never for myself.

I really don't wish to say that my life is meaningless. Because it does mean everything for me sometimes. At least, once. It's really everything of my life! Just feel like my life had really changed, and I love it! enjoyed it.

I remember what I said. I want it to be forever, I want to remember that for my whole life. But time changes, life changes and people change. I'm totally disappointed of my life.

I gotta say what's on my mind, three words : I am suck.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

TIRED

Well I'm completely tired. It's about 1am now. It's really "early" and Im still sitting in front of my acer laptop.

I slept late last night, the effect of coffee. xp I chat with ys until I gotto sleep. Well just talking, nothing much special.

I went to ts to meet up with Hung today. Damn tired. I don't know why? maybe because I was woken up by him this morning, not enough sleep? Or maybe I shopped? To cut off my spends, I came home quickly, to prevent me from spending too much there. =.=

I found Vanessa movie for this year, it's Bandslam. It's not a great movie as high school musical, quite boring actually. But thanks god I still watched it till the end of the movie. =)

I realised I start to know things that I didn't know in the past, do things that I didnt concern in the past. Thanks for the person who inspired my heart and my life. Though, he may not be here for me anymore. For god's sake, I'm still his friend, hopefully, forever. OH... Of course I don't hope it. =(

Speaking about assignment. Urgh! That's the word I wanna say. Just a HELP page, makes my head getting bigger and bigger! But I still have to work on it, didn't I? Yeah... yeah... Thinking about the codes, and the words and things that I have to put in the HELP page. Well, that's really sucks! I hate it! But, what to do? I have to do it!

OH, I just feel like my life is just getting sucker and sucker... Since his left. oh why? Because I can't get his help anymore. =( I have to be more independent. Yeah I am... I went to ts alone and came back alone! haha! This was my first time... I used to go with someone's accompany.

I just can't get into sleep and so writing so much craps here... Hopefully won't let my blog readers bore...

Im really speechless now. Nothing to say! Well, I just realise I havent analyse the survey data. T.T Oh ya, the survey form. ch told me that he didn't answer it as st took it to gor gor's house. =.= and gor did it. sweat~ But it's so weird that I only get 2 of 3 back. And, ch told me that maybe the one has lost. =.= sweat again. Alright, whatever.

Today, I learnt three words : terrific, halt and dewey.

That's pretty great! Learn from movie... I guess I have to watch more american movie? Maybe.


Alright that's all for now. Good night. God bless my blog readers.

Friday, December 18, 2009

江蕙 - 憨阿嬷

作词:潘协庆 / 作曲:陈冠甫 / 编曲:Terence
歌词编辑:李泽昊

天还袂光 露水还含霜你就落床
轻步挽袖 三两手僎好早餐
想拢无想 有好料全部款款给阮
少年为囝 吃老为憨孙

无你泡的茶 无你浆的被 无你滚半工的粥
才知有阿嬷 日子才遐好过

憨阿嬷 你甘有想阮这颗金柑糖
麦行太远 你若脚酸就歇困 不通忍
憨阿嬷 若闻着含笑花蕊的香味
不通袂记 置天边彼面有我 底想你

月清路远 阿嬷的背巾轻重无论
一角一分 步步为世小打算
想拢无想 有好料全部款款给阮
少年为囝 吃老为憨孙

无你泡的茶 无你浆的被 无你滚半工的粥
才知有阿嬷 日子才遐好过

憨阿嬷 你甘有想阮这颗金柑糖
麦行太远 你哪脚酸就歇困 不通忍
憨阿嬷 若闻着含笑花蕊的香味
不通袂记 置天边彼面有我 底想你

憨阿嬷 你甘有想阮这颗金柑糖
麦行太远 你哪脚酸就歇困 不通忍
憨阿嬷 若闻着含笑花蕊的香味
不通袂记 置天边彼面有我 底想你

Thursday, December 17, 2009

High School Musical 4

High School Musical 4: East Meets West

On April 8, 2008, Disney Channel Worldwide President Rich Ross stated that script was being written for the fourth installment of High School Musical. However since Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens' characters have graduated and headed to college, they will not be reappearing, Hudgens has confirmed this via Twitter. The filming will be done by choreographer and director Jeffrey Hornaday and will debut on Disney Channel in 2010. Casting is underway for the fourth installment, which is set against the cross-town school rivalry between the East High Wildcats and West High Knights.

Source : Wikipedia



Alright, based on the above paragraph, the following high school musical won't have Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgen in the movie. Well, quite sad for that. =(

I thought the whole movie is all about both of them? Why not just parse it to another movie? Or may not call high school musical again, may call college musical? wahaha. damn bad idea. xp

The other thing that I just know after watching the High School Musical Cast Concert 2007, is that the songs that Troy sang in the movie and sound track is actually sang by Drew Seeley, a guy that co-wrote the song "Get'cha head in the game". And the whole concert doesn't see Zac Efron's in, why? He was working for a movie perhaps, named Hairspray.

Oh! That's pretty sad. T.T

But hopefully the next High School Musical movie won't disappoint me. This movie is great and well-known okay? I really can't wait to watch the High School Musical 4, though Troy and Gabriella these two characters will not reappear. =(

By the way, I love this movie - High School Musical! Muacks! ^^ And thanks for the person who make me like this movie so much. Thanks! A lot!!!

落叶归根 - 王力宏

曲:王力宏
詞:王力宏



举头望 无尽灰云
那季节 叫做寂寞
背包 塞满了家用
路就 这样开始走
日不见 太阳的暖
夜不见 月光的蓝
不得不 选择 寒冷的开始
留下 只拥有遗憾
命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔.. 远离家乡 不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁 几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边


举头望 无尽灰云
那季节 叫做寂寞
背包 塞满了家用
路就 这样开始走
日不见 太阳的暖
夜不见 月光的蓝
不得不 选择 寒冷的开始
留下 只拥有遗憾
命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔.. 远离家乡 不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁 几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边
但愿陪你找回
所遗失的永恒
当我开口你却沉默
只剩一场梦
我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁 几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

电台广播

早安,您好!欢迎收听幸福园的幸福时间。

嗯……不知道大家有没有这样的经验。就是睡觉的时候,竟然梦到自己在厕所大解。呵呵~有人说那是因为你要大解了所以才会梦。而突然间被信息给吵了。所以,睡觉的时候把电话静音是最好的。更不可思议的是,把眼睛闭上了。竟然还能继续睡,还继续梦。但最后还是被第二通信息给吵醒了。

听众们当然要注意,睡觉的时候电话最好别放在自己的身边,远离自己。专家证实了,这样会造成脑癌。

第二我要说的就是那些电话台,总爱七早八早发那些有的没的来吵醒它的消费者。真的拿他们没办法。

然后有些朋友,他们总是自以为很迟了,发简讯来吵。然后把他们睡醒的空闲时间来当作吵醒人的娱乐!有够无聊的。哈哈!嗯……我不是说他们的简讯不对啦~只是哦……要是对方是在对的时间,而是对的人,那当然是没问题。

听众们想象一下,如果你们被一个人吵醒。而自己不是很舒服,想多睡一下。是不是会觉得“天啊!没事干嘛sms吵我?”呢?相信大家都是一样的吧!

好了我说了那么多,那接下来我们来听听这首歌,林晓培的《烦》……


这首歌是久了点,但是有很多人还是会唱这首歌。大家请不要只记得新歌,忘了流行过的歌哦!

梁文音的《勇者之歌》mv已经出了。可以在youtube 看一看。很漂亮很舒服的感觉。
网址是:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUG9agHUrag

嗯……幸福时间接近尾端了。为大家介绍这首来自刘力扬的新歌《礼物》。一首很赞的歌。我们有空再见!谢谢收听。





ps: I have the right to write out anything of my feeling in my blog, as long as it doesn't relate to politics or religion. Enjoy!

Nice clothes

Alright, I saw this clothes in one of the online shop. I like it very much. Don't know what is it so attract my attention. =) If I can own it, damn nice! ^^

林宇中 - 轻轻

作词:林宇中 作曲:林宇中


雪花在轻轻飘 冷风在轻轻削
回忆在轻轻敲 故事有点老 画面有点跳
眼泪在轻轻掉 思念一段美好
是谁先不要 如今已经不重要

月光轻轻的调 拉出影子的苦恼
熟悉的笑 习惯搂的腰 在轻轻扰
月光轻轻的疗 失去温度的怀抱
轻轻放开紧紧的拥抱 然後静静走掉
深深的爱轻轻忘不了

雪花在轻轻飘 冷风在轻轻削
回忆在轻轻敲 故事有点老 画面有点跳
眼泪在轻轻掉 思念一段美好
是谁先不要 如今已经不重要

月光轻轻的调 拉出影子的苦恼
熟悉的笑 习惯搂的腰 在轻轻扰
月光轻轻的疗 失去温度的怀抱
轻轻放开紧紧的拥抱 然後静静走掉
深深的爱轻轻忘不了

月光轻轻的调 拉出影子的苦恼
熟悉的笑 习惯搂的腰 在轻轻扰
月光轻轻的疗 失去温度的怀抱
轻轻放开紧紧的拥抱 然後静静走掉
深深的爱轻轻忘不了
深深的爱轻轻忘不了

Sunday, December 13, 2009

L-O-V-E?

It's quite late now...

1.36pm....

I'm still staring on my acer laptop...



msn with a friend...

talking about L-O-V-E...

a sad word.



What do love really mean?

I don't know...

I confuse.



It is because I do really love.

Do really believe the word's real mean.

Yet, it hurts me, a lot...



Should I continue?

or leave?

I've no idea.

Perhaps... I should just remain...

To protect myself, protect my little heart.

Friday, December 11, 2009

天光

呒甘起床
呒愿
将梦打断
梦中声声句句
梦你甘有想阮
梦你甘有想阮
恨你
没分没寸
为何夜夜放阮
为你
袜吃袜困
天光
呒甘起床
呒愿
将梦打断
梦中声声句句
梦你甘有想阮
为你
袜吃袜困
心事
拜托白云
讲阮
思思念念
想你
想到天光
为你
袜吃袜困
心事
拜托白云
讲阮
思思念念
想你
想到天光

喜欢她写的post

时间

时间不会为谁而停留
它就像流沙
飘着、走着、流着,
看着时间流沙

一粒一粒的从一端流到另一端
时光前进着
我却想着时光倒流...




Source : 洛阳心部落格

雪雨 - 梁文音

若非这一场雨
有些事再也不会想起
你怀里 那片温暖的遮蔽
如今剩一把伞温热我手心
学你的语气 连告别都如此的温馨
两个字 比眼泪还连续
是否表示你也不忍分离

回忆是冰封在眼睛的雨
藏着多幸福的事情
回不去 是你 任谁也换不了的过去
爱情是凝结在脸颊的雨
像雪景总会融去 才那麽美丽
感谢那个雨季 身旁的人是你

紫.sè制作 QQ:253057646

学你的语气 连告别都如此的温馨
两个字 比眼泪还连续
是否表示你也不忍分离

回忆是冰封在眼睛的雨
藏着多幸福的事情
回不去 是你 任谁也换不了的过去
爱情是凝结在脸颊的雨
像雪景总会融去 才那麽美丽
感谢那个雨季 身旁的人是你

时间是冻结在玄关的雨
模糊你离去的脚印
至少那 涟漪 证明我们曾走在一起
你是那飘落在昨天的雨
在心里留下回音 却遥不可及
彷佛那一个梦里 还躲在你伞底

说不出的话

好多好多话……

藏在心里。

没有说……



不想说。

也不要说。


泪快流干了。


也许有一天我会忘记。

忘记大家,忘记他。

这其实也是不错的。


至少,我不会心痛。


听着梁文音最幸福的事……

感触真的会特别多。

雪雨……

回忆好多好多。


要是我可以更潇洒。

我就不会是受伤的那一个。



句号。

放袂开 江蕙

失恋的人总是空虚 思念总是困袂去
喝着一杯无味的白开水 沈醉在褪色的旧相片
将你的书信留在身边 证明我永远爱你
洒着你留下来的香水 闻着你没留感觉的味

你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来恨你
我翻开那段用心的日子 想的念的都是你
你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来想你
我看在眼里疼入心 难道是你 是我心碎的开始
失恋的人总是空虚 思念总是困袂去
喝着一杯无味的白开水 沈醉在褪色的旧相片
将你的书信留在身边 证明我永远爱你
洒着你留下来的香水 闻着你没留感觉的味

你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来恨你
我翻开那段用心的日子 想的念的都是你
你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来想你
我看在眼里疼入心 难道是你 是我心碎的开始
你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来恨你
我翻开那段用心的日子 想的念的都是你
你明明知道我对你放袂开 为何偏偏叫我来想你
我看在眼里疼入心 难道是你 是我心碎的开始

Monday, December 7, 2009

甲你揽牢牢 - 江蕙

这是收录在江蕙姐的专辑《甲你揽牢牢》的一首歌。是她自己写的。之前为四川灾民作的。很好听。

我欲甲你揽牢牢
因为惊你 半暝ㄚ爬起来哭
甲你揽在心肝头
乎你对人生 抹搁茫渺渺

我欲甲你揽 牢牢
毋免惊惊 惊见笑
世事 乎人想抹晓
需要一个肩胛头

我欲甲你揽牢牢 乎我陪你唱同调
分担你的忧 你的愁 甲你的哭
哭完心事就无了了
我欲甲你揽牢牢 乎你抹惊抹搁哮
往事放乎空 人生啊才有望
乎我陪你渡难关



我欲甲你揽 牢牢
毋免惊惊 惊见笑
世事 乎人想抹晓
你需要一个肩胛头

我欲甲你揽牢牢 乎我陪你唱同调
分担你的忧 你的愁 甲你的哭
哭完心事就无了了
我欲甲你揽牢牢 乎你抹惊抹搁哮
往事放乎空 人生啊才有望
乎我陪你渡难关
往事放乎空 人生啊才有望
乎我甲你揽紧紧

Thursday, December 3, 2009

爱上一个人靠际遇,持续爱一个人靠努力

你相信‘Mr.Right’d的存在吗?也就是说理想的伴侣真的就那么一个吗?往往许多人在抉择伴侣时,容易不知所措,就是因为害怕一时做错决定,造成终生的遗憾。

诺贝尔文学奖得主萧伯纳说:“此时此刻在地球上,约有两万个认适合当你的人生伴侣,就看你先遇见哪一个,如果在第二个理想伴侣出现之前,你已经跟前一个人 发展出互相信赖的深层关系,那后者就会变成你的好朋友,但若你跟前一个人没有培养出深层关系,感情就容易动摇、变心,直到你与这些理想伴侣候选人的其中一 位拥有稳固的深情,才是幸福的开始,漂泊的结束。。。”

爱上一个人不需要靠努力,只需要‘际遇’,是上天的安排,但是‘持续的爱一个人’就要靠‘努力’。在爱情的经营中,顺畅运转的要素就是沟通、体量、包容与 自制(面临诱惑有所自制)。有许多人总是为‘际遇’所迷惑与苦恼,意念不停、欲念不断、争逐不散,而忘了培养经营感情的能力才是幸福的关键,所以不要去追 问到底谁才是我的Mr.Right,而是要问说在眼前的伴侣关系中,我能努力到什么程度、成长到什么程度,若没有培养出经营幸福的能力,就算真的 Mr.Right出现在你身边,幸福依然会错过的,而活在犹疑于遗憾当中,这不就是许多‘爱情虚无症’的遭遇与心态吗?


若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣,就不要再随便三心二意的犹疑了,我们往往不易察觉感情中的一个陷阱,就是‘近亲生慢悔’,也就是经济学中的铁律‘边际效益递减法则’,跟你一起越久的人,就越容易麻木与忽视;而新鲜的‘际遇’总是那么动人可爱.


但别忘了,新欢身上有不确定的未知数;旧爱身上就是由难得的熟悉、确定感、信赖感。千万不要随便在偶然的‘际遇’中迷失了自己,而错放了幸福温暖的手。

離婚酒店~

感动我的故事,你呢?=)


他和她結婚整整10年了,夫妻間已經沒有任何衝動與情趣,
他越來越覺得自己對她幾乎就是一種程式與義務,
他開始厭煩起了她,尤其是單位新調進了一個年輕活潑的女孩,
對他發起了瘋狂的進攻,他突然覺得她是自己的第二春,經過再三考慮,
他決定和她離婚。她似乎也麻木了,很平靜地答應了他,
兩個人一起走進了民政部門。 ­

手續辦得很順利,出門後,兩個人已經是各自獨立的自由人了,
不知為什麼,他心裏突然有種空落落的感覺,他看了看她:
“天已經晚了,一起去吃點飯吧。”

她看了看他:“好吧,聽說新開了一家‘離婚酒店’,
專門執行離婚夫婦的最後一頓晚餐,要不咱們到那兒去看看。” ­

他點了點頭,兩人一前一後默默地走進了離婚酒店。 ­

“先生女士晚上好。”二人在包廂剛坐下,服務小姐便走了進來,
“請問兩位想吃點兒什麼?” ­

他看了看她:“你點吧。” ­

她搖了搖頭:“我不常出來,不太清楚這些,還是你點吧。” ­

“對不起先生女士,我們離婚酒店有個規矩,這頓飯必
須要由 女士點先生平時最愛吃的菜,由先生點女士平時最愛吃的菜,
這叫‘最後的記憶’。” ­

“那好吧,”她理了理頭髮,“清蒸魚、溜蘑菇、拌木耳,
記住,都不要放蔥薑蒜,我先生……這位先生他不吃這些。” ­

“先生呢?”服務小姐看了看他。


他愣住了。結婚10年,他真的不知道老婆喜歡吃什麼。他張著嘴,
尷尬地愣在了那兒。
“就這些吧,其實這是我們兩個人都愛吃的。”她連忙打起了圓場。 ­

服務小姐笑了笑:“說實話,到我們離婚酒店來吃這最後一頓晚餐,
所有的先生和女士其實都吃不下去什麼,所以這‘最後的記憶’
咱們還是不要吃了吧。就喝我們酒店特意為所有離婚人士準備的
晚餐——冷飲吧,這也是所有來的人都不拒絕的選擇。”

她與她都點了點頭:“那就來冷飲吧。” ­

很快,服務小姐送來了兩份冷飲,兩份飲料中一份淡藍一片,
全是冰渣;一份滿杯紅潤,冒著熱氣。 ­

“這份晚餐名叫‘一半是火焰,一半是海水’,兩位慢用。”
服務小姐介紹完退了下去。 ­

包房裏靜悄悄的,兩個人相對而坐,一時竟不知道該說什麼好。 ­

“篤篤篤!”輕輕一陣敲門聲,服務小姐走了近來,托盤裏托著
一枝鮮豔的紅玫瑰:“先生,還記得您第一次給這位女士送花的情景嗎?
現在一切都結束了,夫妻不成就當朋友,朋友要好聚好散,
最後為女士送朵玫瑰吧。” ­

她渾身一抖,眼前又浮現出了10年前他給她送花的情景,那時,
他們剛剛來到這座舉目無親的省城,什麼都沒有,一切從零開始。
白天,他們四處找工作,
努力拼搏;晚上, 為了增加收入,她去晚市出小攤,他去給人家刷盤子。很晚很晚,
他們才一起回到租住在地下室裏那不足10平米的小屋。日子很苦,可他們卻很幸福。
到省城的第一個情人節
那天,他為自己買了第一朵紅玫瑰,她幸福得流下了眼淚。
10年了,一切都好起來了,可兩個人卻走向了分離。她想著想著,淚水盈滿了雙眼,
她擺了擺手說:“不用了。” ­

他也想起了過去的10年,他這才記起,自己已經有五六年沒有給
她買過一枝玫瑰了。他擺了擺手:“不,要買。” ­

服務小姐卻拿起了玫瑰,“刷刷”兩下撕成了兩半,分別扔進了
兩個人的飲料杯裏,玫瑰竟然溶解在了飲料裏。 ­

“這是我們酒店特意用糯米製成的紅玫瑰,也是送給你們的第三道菜,
名叫‘映景的美麗’。先生女士慢用,有什麼需要直接叫我。”
服務小姐說完,轉身走了出去。 ­

XX,我……”他一把握住她的手,有些說不出話來。 ­

她抽了抽手,沒有抽動,便不再動彈。兩個人靜靜地對視著,什麼也說不出來。

“啪!”突然,燈熄了,整個包房裏漆黑一片,外面警鈴大作,
一股煙味兒飄了進來。 ­

“怎麼了?”兩個人急忙站了起來。 ­

“店起火了,大家馬上從安全通道走!快!”外面,有人聲嘶力竭地喊了起來。

“老公!”她一下撲進了他的懷裏,“我怕!” ­

“別怕!”他緊緊摟住她,“親愛的,有我呢。走,往外衝!” ­

包廂外面燈光通明,秩序井然,什麼都沒有發生。 ­

服務小姐走了過來:“對不起,先生女士,讓兩位受驚了。
酒店並沒有失火,煙味兒也是特意往包房裏放的一點點,
這是我們的第四道菜,名叫‘內心的選擇’。請回包廂。” ­

他和她回到了包廂,燈光依舊。他一把拉她:“親愛的,
服務小姐說得對,剛才那才是你我內心真正的選擇。其實,
我們誰都離不開誰,明天咱們重新結婚吧?”

她咬了咬嘴唇:“你願意嗎?” ­

“我願意,我現在什麼都明白了,明天一早咱就去辦結婚。
小姐,買單。”他說著喊了起來 。 ­

服務小姐走了近來,遞給兩人一人一張精緻的紅色清單:
“先生女士好,這是兩位的帳單,也是本酒店的最後一道贈品,
名叫‘永遠的帳單’,請兩位永遠保存吧。"
­

他看著帳單,眼淚淌了下來。 ­

“你怎麼了?”她連忙問道。 ­

他把帳單遞給了她:“親愛的,我錯了,我對不起你。” ­

她打開帳單一看,只見上面寫著:

一個溫暖的家;
兩隻操勞的手;
三更不熄等您歸家的燈;
四季注意身體的叮囑;
無微不至的關懷;
六旬婆母的微笑;
起早貪黑對孩子的照顧;
八方維護您的威信;
九下廚房為了您愛吃的一道菜;
十年為您逝去的青春……
這就是您的妻子。 ­

“老公,您辛苦了,這些年也是我冷漠了你。”
她也把自己的那份帳單遞給了他。他打開帳單,只見上面寫著:
一個男人的責任;
兩肩挑起的重擔;
三更半夜的勞累;
四處奔波的匆忙;
無法傾訴的委屈;
留在臉上的滄桑;
七姑八姨的義務;
八上八下的波折;
九優一疵的凡人;
時時對家對子的真情……
這就是您的丈夫。 ­

兩個人抱在一起,放聲痛哭。 ­

結完帳,他和她對經理千恩萬謝,手牽手走回了家。
看者他們幸福的背影,經理微笑著點了點頭:
“真幸福,我們離婚酒店又挽救了一個家!

最最 梁文音

作词:陈宏宇 作曲:张启政

我最最在乎的人
像一支扎进心里面最刺的针
虽然也许是 痛了 过了 忘了 我怕疼
感伤情歌的规则 笨的人都是女生
轻轻跟唱着才体会有多深刻

一个字就是永恒 一眨眼就已转身
两个人曾是我们最最适合的体温
是不是接受不完整
会更有接近完美的可能
一点感动的炽热 一厢情愿的反正
相信我是他永远 最最爱的
那时候简单的诚恳
我们都不会看得见纯真 后来的泪痕

会最最在乎的人
为什么会是 心里面无底的坑
我猜也许是 早已看穿却又不承认
CD放自己的歌 回声任自己冷着
忘记跟唱的空洞原来最残忍

一个字就是永恒 一眨眼就已转身
两个人曾是我们最最适合的体温
是不是接受不完整
会更有接近完美的可能
一点感动的炽热 一厢情愿的反正
相信我是他永远 最最爱的
要经过那一段残忍
才渐渐了解当时的纯真 是一段青春

一个字就是永恒 一眨眼就已转身
两个人曾是我们最最贪的舍不得
是不是接受不完整
会更有接近完美的可能
一点感动的炽热 一厢情愿的反正
我曾经是他永远 最最爱的
要经过那一段残忍
才渐渐了解当时的纯真 是一段青春

乱写的

此刻的我,心情起伏不定。
心中澎湃的呐喊,谁听得见?
微笑突然没有了。
眼泪掉落了。

是谁?是谁抢走了我的快乐?
是谁说要一辈子?
是谁先说我爱你?

一切就这样……
慢慢地,慢慢地……
走开。

记忆有限。
回忆会被抹掉。
然而,心中的那一道伤痕,在刺痛。

有谁可以确定快乐可以持续?
有谁说幸福可以永远?
爱情是短暂的?或不是?

朋友的祝福和陪伴……
是永恒的吗?
我犹豫。
也许,没有事情是永恒的。
没有东西是完美的。
但是,在我心里,他却是如此的完美。

爱情是盲目的。
分享和分担过的一切……
仍在我脑海里浮现着。

爱是为了拥抱,为了牵手,不是为了掉头。
但是最后的结局,谁能知道?

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

写心情


爱~就是爱!让我……不想说那么多。我爱的人不爱我,爱我的人我不爱。哈哈!这句好熟~嗯!总之,我现在不想爱!呵呵~那如果是跟那个那个谁,当然想咯!谁?嗯~秘密!XD

真的真的是时候收拾下玩闹的心情,再进入忙碌的功课里了。这几天都不知道做些什么。做了好多不该做的东西浪费了时间。嗯……我想,我是时候认认真真重新投入功课了。要做到自己心目中的最好,真的要很多时间和精神。绝对不要因为某个人,再堕落了。也不像因为那些有的没的,放弃了好多。

一路走来,朋友,我有好多。有些我忘了,有些仍在我心里。我忘了不是因为我健忘,而是,有些人,总是让我们印象深刻;有些人,像是路人般走过。

记得小学毕业后,我和小学同学各分东西。我仍记得我迟了别人两个星期入学。到了学校,只有一个字“哇!” 因为,比起小学,中学比较大,走得我还会迷路。而且,我一个朋友都没有。后来叫到了好多很好的朋友。但是……却因为一些事情,我们11个人的关系,不再像往常一样好。其实,你们知道吗?我好怀念我们11个人,每次整堆酱出去玩。直到毕业,我们都没有和好如初。

真的,有些人,不管你想什么,都和他有关系。对不起。也许,我还没有忘记他。

我上了依婷的部落格。我这个妹妹,真是棒!比我坚强多了。我还得像她多多学习。而且,她的华文,远远超越我的水准!婷,看了你的post,让我觉得你真的长大了!祝你幸福~你长得美又可爱,应该有很多粉丝。要是喜欢人家,就好好珍惜。像你所说,缘,是天赐的。但是,机会和幸福是靠自己去争取。记得要珍惜,好好爱!如你所说,珍惜你的青春。=)

当初选择过来这里读书。不知道是为了什么。但是,我应该没有选错课吧!programming那些coding,我都还蛮感兴趣的。虽然有时候上课打瞌睡。呵呵~

其实……我不知道该留下来,还是离开。帮我做决定的人,都已经离开,不会管我了。但是,要是我问他,他一定会叫我留下来。那我呢?我的心,应该是想离开吧?我的理智呢?理智都会胜过感情。我抉择,是因为什么?哈!太清楚明显了吧?我的用心和期盼,已经注定要落空。

真的,哭过就好了。我就是这么一个傻瓜。基本上,爱的人都是傻瓜。不是吗?

=)

Sunday, November 29, 2009

海派甜心



台湾富商公子薛海化名达浪到杭州念书,同学欺负之时,学姐宝茱出手相助,两人谈起了第一次恋爱。台湾的广告公司来到校园举行“甜心皇后”的比赛。宝 茱拿到了冠军,从此被大家叫做“甜心”。这时甜心的父亲破产,抛妻弃女。甜心只得和母亲搬回台湾,因误会和与达浪失去联系。被抛弃达浪成了一个玩弄感情的 花花公子。直到有一天听到电台“甜心时间”。薛海买下了电台,展开对甜心的报复,当看到甜心和别人约会的时候,薛海才发现自己仍然深爱甜心。于是达浪重新 展开对甜心的追求。就在此时,甜心母亲发现达浪的大姐竟然是甜心父亲的初恋情人,于是强烈反对,二人的爱情期待着走出困境。

  初遇甜心, 纯爱男孩转大人变成海派王子!
  再遇甜心, 他要她为夺走他的纯真付出代价!!!
  薛海(假名达浪)罗志祥饰,纯情少年第一次初尝恋爱滋味,却因为失恋而变成嚣张的海派王子,明明想要折磨你却又停不下对你的爱,这到底是谁的错?
  陈宝茱(杨丞琳饰)我是真的爱上那个腼腆害羞的穷小子,只是命运让我们分开,再遇到外表跟你长的如此相像的你,却成了另一个讨厌的家伙,到底要远离你,还是该爱上你?

  我…我…我………叫…叫……薛……海,可以跟我做朋友吗?呼~~」
  香菇头、大眼镜、短裤高筒袜外加戽斗特色下巴,谁能想的到这样标准宅男居然会是个坐著金摇篮长大的企业第三代!
  个性内向又单纯成天宅在家的薛海(罗志祥 饰)在年纪大到可以当妈妈的
  两位姊姊严密保护下,既没朋友也没接触过外面花花世界的他,
  萌生向往自由生活的念头,所以薛海决定:「我要去杭州!!」,
  并且还换上一个诡异的假名「林达浪」掩饰显赫的身分,而这一去,竟彻底改变了他的人生……
  「我叫陈宝茱!不准叫错我的名字,如果不想死的话……」
  “When I wake up in the morning,You are all I see; When I think about you,And how happy you make me……”
  一开口,便是如天籁般的嗓音,让人不禁想看看本人的样子是否也如声音般的甜美。
  但是!要是敢再多看她一秒钟,包准你下一秒立刻去医院报到!这才是甜心的真面目,跋扈又霸道。陈宝茱(杨丞琳 饰),
  在浙江大学里无人不知这号人物,声名远播全因她招招几乎能致命的柔道功夫,
  直到遇上那个不知死活的惊世骇俗丑不啦叽香菇头,闯进她的生命,打乱了她的一切……
  「达浪!…达浪!…达浪达浪达浪达浪~~~~~达达达浪」,你知道顽皮豹的好朋友是谁喔?你也喜欢顽皮豹喔!!
  因为相互喜欢顽皮豹,让个性差很大的两人,结下了曲折又奇妙的缘份!
  害羞的达浪想尽办法鼓起勇气和宝茱接触,希望与同是台湾人的宝茱当好朋友。
  宝茱见所有同学都讨厌自己,只有达浪不怕死,倒也觉得达浪特别;而且达浪傻傻的、好像什麼事都不懂的样子,
  也常搞得宝茱哭笑不得,更燃起宝茱的正义感,激起想保护达浪的欲望,於是常将达浪「带」在身边。
  即使所有人都叫达浪不要靠近宝茱,达浪仍然与宝茱密切互动,两个正值青春年少的男女,逐渐互生好感……
  「如果哪一天你看见顽皮豹被丢掉,就代表我不要你了…」
  长时间的相处,两人渐渐发现对方的优点与可爱的地方,很自然的愈走愈近,从朋友变成了情人,
  感情一天比一天甜蜜,达浪还将自己最真爱的顽皮豹玩偶送给他最喜欢的宝茱,作为两人交往的纪念。
  但宝茱一直烦恼著达浪穷困的背景会遭到母亲的反对,果然不出所料,宝茱母亲想尽方法拆散两人,
  深爱达浪的宝茱暗自决定与达浪长相厮守!就在宝茱生日当天,达浪痴痴等著宝茱准备向他求婚,
  却迟迟不见宝茱身影,担心的达浪来到宝茱家只看见人去楼空与被丢弃在垃圾桶里的顽皮豹,心碎的达浪,再也不相信爱情……
  「老天爷~~你是在惩罚我吗?为什麼要跟我开这种玩笑!」
  三年后,宝茱已是人气高涨的甜心DJ,却在因缘际会下与达浪重逢,
  「我是薛海,是你的新老板!」,「什麼!你怎麼可能不是达浪,明明长得一模一样!!」
  眼前这个穿著夸张、浑身散发好野人气息的海派王子虽然与憨厚的达浪大相迳庭,
  但相像的容貌却让宝茱陷入了前所未有的困惑。
  但新老板干麼有事没事找麻烦,处处针对她啊,是想考验她陈宝茱的耐性吗?......
  「好啊!谁怕谁!薛海,老娘跟你杠上了!」这对欢喜冤家的爱情战争可是没完没了呢!
  海派王子和甜心的爱情之路坎坷不断,何时才能回到真爱的本质?……

Monday, November 23, 2009

一个莫名其妙的梦

上星期五凌晨,我记得很清楚是这一天。因为我记得在ks的车上我还提过这个梦。这个梦……我不知道是什么意思。但是,很不可思议又很有趣。那个时候我真的真的进入那个梦乡。

不知道这个梦是如何开始。但是我记得如何结束。我和一些朋友。当中包括凯欣、汇挺、云凤、winnie、kaka好像也有。其余的我记得不是很清楚了。事隔了几天,请原谅我的善忘啦。嘻嘻……然后我记得还有Mr.Heng 和他女朋友。

起初我们不懂去哪个地方完的。后来……变成在《来发公园》。那时距离我家不是很远的一个艺术馆,后来还有一些动物在里面。我和凯欣一起走着。由于我很熟悉那里了,我就带她去那个大池那边。有一道桥的。桥下养了很多的鲤鱼的。但是不管我怎么找,都找不到那座桥。

就是这个我找不到的。

后来我看到前面有一座很长的桥,右边也有。我就说,怎么不一样了?到底是那一个?然后就和凯欣选了右边的。我们就跟着别的访客一起走在那座桥上面。那个桥是真的不一样的。蓝色龙式的……可以说不是桥。当时的经过我已忘了。我只懂选了右边的。然后我们走到差不多尾了。那个龙式的东西就摆动了。试想想看,我们站在一个会摆动的东西上面。就好像真的龙一样,左右摆动。而且下面是个湖,很深,青色的水。里面好像有鳄鱼似的。总之里面有好几条巨鱼。看到我都怕。

然后就这样一直摆动。我死命扶着扶手。大喊!大家也都一齐喊的。因为真的很恐怖!很害怕!一不小心掉了进去,怎么办?我望着凯欣,很害怕的眼神。很想说“对不起!如果不是我,你也不用跟我一起怕了!”不懂就这样害怕了多久。那个东西停下来了。其实它只是一个好像roller coaster的东西。但是真的很恐怖!

我走回上岸。和凯欣抱住了,说“好恐怖哦!怎么这里会有这种玩意儿?”这时,winnie和其他人都走来了。winnie就说“诶,这个新的东西咧!之前都没有的?走咯我们去玩!” 我和凯欣就喊“不要!!!不要去!很恐怖的!我们刚玩。真的很恐怖!!”但他们还是去玩。我和凯欣只好害怕的等他们玩完。既担心又害怕。刚才的恐惧感都还没完,当然害怕了。后来不懂怎样我就醒了。

这是我第二次把梦记得那么清楚。因为,真的太恐怖太恐怖了!现在想起来都还是心跳加速。

虽然我不知道这个梦代表什么。但是哦……真的很恐怖呢!不要再梦这种有的没的了。来发公园根本没有那个东西。而且,我们起先根本不是去来发公园的。不知道怎么后来变成去了那里。



莲花。佛教的象征。真的让我冷静了,不害怕。有一种纯净的心灵。心無罣礙,無罣礙故,無有恐怖,遠離顛倒夢想,究竟涅槃。(心经)

揭谛揭谛 波罗揭谛 波罗僧揭谛 菩提娑婆诃(心经)


阿弥陀佛!=)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

梁文音 哭过就好了

梁文音 - 哭过就好了

作词:姚若龙 作曲:陈小霞


不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我 没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

爱,一直存在

梁文音的《爱,一直存在》终于都发出了。听着她的歌……还是那么有感觉。梁文音的歌,就是能感动我。就是那么容易就可以让我想起他。所以,我喜欢梁文音。

这些日子,好多好多事情发生。有好的,有坏的。我的情绪也随着这些事情起起落落。繁忙的功课和好玩的时间都已经让我的睡眠时间少。脸上多了好几颗痘痘。也许是生理反应,也许是我的生活习惯造成的。原本今天10点要睡了。结果,2点了,都还没睡。

那一个感觉,又回来了。

不想让别人关心,不喜欢告诉别人事情。

只是很想一直睡觉。很想不要上课。很想不理一切一切。很想放下一切。在家瘫痪似的躺着……飙泪。我的心事,我的心,有多少人可以真的理解?除了他,没有人那么懂我。

我的心在淌血。

我的脑在回忆过去,痛苦。

我的身体累坏了。

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………


是时候去睡了。

朋友。这两个字。就好像爱情,这两个字。差别的,是一个会陌生,一个会结束。

对于这些情感。我不再在乎。除了某些人,再除了那几个人。对我来说……“只因为我是你朋友,我关心你。 帮你。”

那些假猩猩的面具,希望他们别让我知道。我不想知道,也不喜欢懂。

那些很烦的人。当我说你很烦,那就是说,你打扰我了。请理我远一点。不要让我伤害你们。我不是好人。

这一切一切,都让喘不过气来。


但是,因为……爱,一直存在。所以,我哭过就好了。最亲爱的都走了,所以,现在,最亲爱的是我。

Thursday, November 19, 2009

很累

很累……真的很累!这几天,我都好像机器人一样,一直做一直做。一直写……玩了过后才做。做到迟迟才去睡。还可以讲电话。今天,看戏看到眼睛都要闭了。在床上躺着休息边看戏,竟然睡着了。好累了!我终于累,终于垮了~

我又开始压力了。开始给自己压力了。我不想的。我多想自己不要对自己的要求那么高,多想自己可以不要想太多。感觉好压力,好累!那些压力……自己给了自己,还让自己辛苦了。更让自己给累了!

最近不只要烦assignment,还有一些事情。我不想说。但是,我的立场,很坚定!不就是不。希望某些人会明白。

他们两个,最终还是分手了。也许……爱情就是这样。没有谁对谁错。有多少对情侣,真的可以永远?

…………………………


写到一半去做东西。而且还是帮人。真不懂我那么好心做么……
不想写了。所以我就是不喜欢写post的时候开着msn……sien了咯!明天想写再写吧!各位,晚安。

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Friendship

A friend walk in when the rest of the world walks out.

Sometimes in life,

You find a special friend;

Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can‘t stop;

Someone who makes you believe that there is still goods in the world.

Someone who convinces you that there is still an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.



The Forever Friendship,

is when you‘re down and the world seems dark and empty,

Your real friend lifts you up in spirits and makes that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.

Your real friend gets you through the hard times,the sad times,and the confused times.



If you turn and walk away,

he/she will follow.



If you lose you way,

The real friend guides you and cheers you up.

The real friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay.



And if you find such a friend,

You feel happy and satisfied because you don't have to worry.


Your have a real friend for life, forever and ever.





modified from : http://zhidao.baidu.com/question/81994215.html

Thursday, November 5, 2009

善良 - 天堂

希望你喜欢这个故事!


  一天,一个盲人带着他的导盲犬过街时,一辆大卡车失去控制,直冲过来,盲人当场被撞死,他的导盲犬为了守卫主人,也一起惨死在车轮底下。
主人和狗一起到了天堂门前。
  一个天使拦住他俩,为难地说:“对不起,现在天堂只剩下一个名额,你们两个中必须有一个去地狱。”
  主人一听,连忙问:“我的狗又不知道什么是天堂,什么是地狱,能不能让我来决定谁去天堂呢?”
  天使鄙视地看了这个主人一样,皱起了眉头,她想了想,说:“很抱歉,先生,每一个灵魂都是平等的,你们要通过比赛决定由谁上天堂。”
  主人失望地问:“哦,什么比赛呢?”
  天使说:“这个比赛很简单,就是赛跑,从这里跑到天堂的大门,谁先到达目的地,谁就可以上天堂。不过,你也别担心,因为你已经死了,所以不再是瞎子,而且 灵魂的速度跟肉体无关,越单纯善良的人速度越快。”主人想了想,同意了。
  天使让主人和狗准备好,就宣布赛跑开始。她满心以为主人为了进天堂,会拼命往前奔,谁知道主人一点也不忙,慢吞吞地往前走着。更令天使吃惊的是,那条导盲犬 也没有奔跑,它配合着主人的步调在旁边慢慢跟着,一步都不肯离开主人。天使恍然大悟:原来,多年来这条导盲犬已经养成了习惯,永远跟着主人行动,在主人的 前方守护着他。可恶的主人,正是利用了这一点,才胸有成竹,稳操胜券,他只要在天堂门口叫他的狗停下就可以了。
天使看着这条忠心耿耿的狗,心里很难过,她大声对狗说:“你已经为主人献出了生命,现在,你这个主人不再是瞎子,你也不用领着他走路了,你快跑进天堂吧!”
  可是,无论是主人还是他的狗,都像是没有听到天使的话一样,仍然慢吞吞地地往前走,好像在街上散步似的。
  果然,离终点还有几步的时候,主人发出一声口令,狗听话地坐下了,天使用鄙视的眼神看着主人。
  这时,主人笑了,他扭过头对天使说:“我终于把我的狗送到天堂了,我最担心的就是它根本不想上天堂,只想跟我在一起……所以我才想帮它决定,请你照顾好 它。”天使愣住了。
  主人留恋地看着自己的狗,又说:“能够用比赛的方式决定真是太好了,只要我再让它往前走几步,它就可以上天堂了。不过它陪伴了我那么多年,这是我第一次可以用自己的眼睛看着它,所以我忍不住想要慢慢地走,多看它一会儿。如果可以的话,我真希望永远看着它走下去。不过天堂到了,那才是它该去的地方,请你照顾好它。”
  说完这些话,主人向狗发出了前进的命令,就在狗到达终点的一刹那,主人像一片羽毛似的落向了地狱的方向。他的狗见了,急忙掉转头,追着主人狂奔。满心懊悔的天使张开翅膀追过去,想要抓住导盲犬,不过那是世界上最纯洁善良的灵魂,速度远比天堂所有的天使都快。所以导盲犬又跟主人在一起了,即使是在地狱,导盲犬也永远守护着它的主人。天使久久地站在那里,喃喃说道:“我一开始就错了,这两个灵魂是一体的,他们不能分开……”
最后,我要说:这个世界上,真相只有一个,可是在不同人眼中,却会看出不同的是非曲直。这是为什么呢?其实,道理很简单,因为每个人看待事物,都不可能站在绝对客观公正的立场上,而是或多或少地戴上有色眼镜,用自己的经验好恶和道德标准来进行评判,结果就是——我们看到了假象。
  "友谊的幸福之一,是知道了可以向谁倾吐秘密。"当你说:"你是我的好朋友"时,请认真的说出来。当你道歉时请看着对方的眼睛。

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

我怎么了

嗯~不知道我自己怎么了,今天,自己觉得自己很怪。这一次,我诉说的对象,换了人了。嗯~不是说不好,而是,证明了,我和他之间,有东西了。不知道是什么东西。不过,我也不想去想太多,在意那么多了。很多个mid term和assignment一拼来,我快要疯了!

然后哦~我看到一个人的一个post,不知道是写给我看的吗~anyway,不管是不是,我都不想再去猜测那么多。我只想说,一切顺其自然吧!生活是这样的,有高潮,也会有低潮。有些人会一直在身旁,不管多远,多复杂。只要有那一颗心,一切皆有缘。也许我和她的误会,没有得到改变。我只希望我们都能让它长出翅膀,飞走。我只想说,朋友,我还爱你,还珍惜你。愿你快乐。

也许我说话的语气不太对。在不对的时间,说不适合的话。各位,我在这里道歉!然后~希望大家不要介意太多吧!

今天肚子不知道做什么屁,lau sai不停~害我ponteng了两小时的algebra。真是的!但是,却让我觉得开心。我了解,有些朋友,关心我,在乎我。虽然某某人给我“骂”,我不是真的骂你哦~是开玩笑的!哈哈!希望你懂我在开玩笑啊!嘻嘻~

然后,今天,我也发现,有一些人,会影响我的心情。嗯~~~我了解了!了解什么啊?不告诉你~哈哈!我懂就好。

最后,我想……发个愿!我诚心向佛陀发愿,愿我身边的人快快乐乐,愿天下苍生平安,无灾无难。阿弥陀佛~

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

莫名其妙的,就这样~走开了

突然感觉很莫名其妙哦~因为一些事情。因为一个我很重视的朋友!哎~又是朋友。又是我重视的朋友。对不起~也许,我又让那个人不舒服了。我就是这样,一直让身边的人不舒服。对不起。也许,我不该,不该重视certain朋友。好朋友往往都会变回普通朋友。情人最后会变成陌生人。

在爱情的世界里,爱得太深会受伤,所以我选择不爱了。我觉得从没有开始的爱情,才是最完美的。回忆是美的,但是却会刺伤我小小的心灵。

原来,朋友的关系也不过是如此。太重视,也会受到伤害。可以从一个无话不说,没有秘密的关系,变得无话可说,变得沉默。

人际关系这门学问,我怎么学都学不会。到头来,受伤的还会是我。是因为我太单纯,把一些人,看得太好,太爱他们?还是,好朋友,就是这样的?不懂,我得不到答案。

今天,有一种感觉好像失去了一个谈心的好朋友。不知道下一次,我找他聊心事时,他还会理我吗?或许……我不该……把我和他的关系看得太重。她也一样。心痛痛地~

朋友?好朋友?是什么?

不,是因为……=)我了解了。

让我笑得很开心的他,今天,也让我伤心了。

曾让我觉得很幸福的他,我的泪已经为他流干了。

一切都会成为过去,我有时候,真的想离开。很想离开!这次,真的没有什么值得我留念了。我该做选择了。我会走~

Monday, November 2, 2009

旧曲重温歌唱比赛(二)

嘿嘿!我是鼓起了好大好大的勇气才把这个video clip放上来的。因为我觉得自己好像卡通一样,由于珠姨的技术不好,请大家不要见怪。然后哦!看完了不要笑啦!不好的话,请大家多多包含哦!^^


Sunday, November 1, 2009

旧曲重温歌唱比赛

在鱼龙国海鲜大酒家举办的第十五届全国旧曲重温中南马区圆满结束了!冠、亚、季军都不知道什么名字(别怪我啦~我是北马的嘛~)嘻嘻!那我呢?我得了优秀奖!是优秀奖哦!不是安慰奖~这个……我觉得很好!很满意了!

《黄昏放牛》没得选唱
初赛成绩公布后,20为参赛者就必须抽签和给歌名,而且不可以撞歌。起先我抽到20号,很兴奋!因为老师说过,越后面越好!那是最后咧!嘻嘻……原本我还很开心,《黄昏放牛》没人唱,后来,有一个男生要唱,我们两个就抽签,抽到勾的唱,结果我拿到叉~T.T 这首歌可是我最拿手,最喜欢的歌咧!没法子,改唱《牧童之歌》。这首嘛~小时候在老师那边学过,老师还教我舞步。不过~很久的事了,都不记得舞步了。再加上我练了那么久《黄昏放牛》没得唱,我的心情就好像不爽就是了!我终于了解上次老师唱不到《最后一夜》改唱《庭院深深》的心情了。真的没那个兴奋和心情要去唱好它的,就好像“随便啦”~这样子。那我就随随便便乱掰台风,随随便便拉拉两下~哈哈!不过哦~那些观众都还蛮喜欢的,这样,我就觉得很满足!很开心了!话说回来,那个唱了《黄昏放牛》的,唱得不是很好,而且才安慰奖~要是给我唱,我会唱得比《牧童之歌》好!毕竟那是属于我的歌~属于老师的歌~我很爱的一首歌!

心愿达成!
今天我终于可以再站在舞台上,唱自己喜欢唱的歌,娱乐大家。我是真的很开心!唱 《牧童之歌》的时候,我并没有那么紧张,只是喉咙有点干,因为忘了喝水再去后台。我就以平常心这样唱,因为,我对那首歌,根本就没有期待些什么,自然而然也没有那种压力了!进到20强我已经开心了。没想到我竟然还在10强里面。排名第七!诶,真的很好了哦!那首歌,我没有比过,只是拿来表演用的。我对我刚才的表现并不满意,知道自己唱得不是很好。我心里只想要优秀奖,因为我只有资格拿到优秀奖,但是不要给我安慰奖嘛,太逊了!呵呵~结果还真的是像我判断的一样。

优秀奖
这是我有史以来拿优秀奖拿到最开心的一次!以前自己都奢望三甲。但是哦!可能是长大了的关系,学会判断了。自己唱得不好,怎么奢望评审团给我高的分数呢?但是,今天我唱得很开心,跳得很开心。进了三甲,要去槟城比总决赛。好像有三个环节。哎哟,总之就是两个字“麻烦”!所以我心里打的算盘,并没有要去到那里。所以!这第一份开心的优秀奖,我会记得的!
PB010012 PB010013


认识新朋友+吸取经验
今天认识了几个人,虽然不懂名字,但是,他们还不错,虽然都是uncle aunty啦!不过有一个12岁的靓女哦!哈哈!她妈妈还很好人,叫我去比赛民歌。不过,aunty,我看还是算了吧!这一次比赛,都麻烦到那么多,那么多的人了!而且我的ka chang ham pa lang在家。还有,我要读书~嘻嘻。贪玩一次就够了!经验拿到了多一次!下次有机会再拿吧!嘻嘻~

影响老师
嘿嘿!说起这件事,让我更认同我自己了。以前小的时候也有不少这种事情发生啦。说说今天吧!影响老师向我那电话号码。(别乱想,不是要泡我!哈哈)他问我是不是一直有比赛的,问我是不是这里的人。然后问我要不要帮他们唱歌。就好像以前的时候,嘉声、快乐新的叫我唱一样咯~嗯~可能我看起来很小,但是哦!我会想的哦!不要!不要!哈哈!因为…………不要啦!

很“鱼”!
早上唱《庭院深深》的时候,很气人啦!他们放台不会放靠墙的啊!害我退后退后,踏进那个缝里面,幸亏歌唱完了,剩下一点点音乐,快点闪人!但是,那一刻我没有抬头看观众,因为,实在是太“鱼”了!!!T.T 我发誓不会再让这种事情发生!

结尾+ 感想
该写结尾了。虽然好像有点东西漏掉了。明天在补吧!(如果想起)因为现在1.30了。今天我像平常一样,想找个人分担我的紧张和兴奋。于是我就想到gor gor,啊不过哦!gor gor才回我一封。刚才打给他也没人接听,可能是睡了。也许,可以说我变了。今天我没有想过要找“他”,或许不是因为我变了,是因为他应该不会理我。但是,那个让我想起的人,也没有帮到我。哈哈!还有一个人,我想起他,但是……我觉得他不会陪我。其实我不该这样看他,他很好一下的。只是有时嘴巴坏了一点。嘻嘻~所以!今天特别要感谢一些些人!

1. Of course is my dearest Mummy, Daddy and Brother.
2. Sure is my aunty "zhu", who sent me there and accompanied me until the end of the competition.
3. My "san yi" and "san yi zhang", and "da yi" and family for their supports. Haiz.. Just now my bottle accidentally felt down, and water came out from the bottle to the car seat. T.T Sorry uncle, I wasn't meant to wet your car seat o!
4. Winnie Wu. haha! Why? For accompaning me to sms for the whole day. Thanks a lot. You really helped me to reduce the nervous!

就这么多,各位,晚安!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

我知道你很难过 蔡依林

跟大家分享这首歌……希望大家会喜欢。这首歌,还不错!旋律,歌词,都很好!大家听一听哦!嘻嘻……
对了,以后我的blog update不会再msn一提了。有心想看的话,frequently上来看看吧!谢谢大家~


专辑:《Jolin 1019》
作词:胡如虹
作曲:叶良俊

爱一个人
需要缘份
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真
去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等

爱一个人
别太认真
你受伤的眼神
令人心疼
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕

我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤得比较久

爱一个人
别太认真
你受伤的眼神
令人心疼
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕

我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤得比较久

爱若变成了刺
思念也成了痴
也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

我知道你很难过
感情的付出
不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做
爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过
昨天是恋人
今天说分手就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定
伤得比较久

超赞的blog

嗯!刚刚看完一个朋友的blog, 可以说是青梅竹马的。哈哈!我四岁就认识他了,到了中学还是同一所学校。虽然说他中学的时候,跟我是超LC的,整天跟我说大话,前几次还傻傻地信他。后来就笑笑点头说:“你骗鬼啊?” 哈哈!读了他的blog,他真的是……不懂!哈哈!不会形容,就……什么话都说在blog里面,炸到~

看他的blog都看了蛮久的,然后一直笑。哈哈!嗯!我又找到新的笑的方法了,就是去读他废废且有意义的blog。哈哈!哥,别吃醋哦~我还是会一直去kacau你的,要知道你是我的dearest gor gor啊!嘻嘻……说真的,下个星期真的要约那只出来喝茶了,说了那么就都没有约他。哈哈!可是他好像要考试了……=.="'

再来就是说他写的歌,其实是不错啦……啊不过哦!他唱歌就不太……呵呵。他第一次自弹自唱,所以,我也rate他不错的分数了。看了他的blog哦,发现他还是一样,说话滔滔不绝。呵呵……我这个朋友算是不错了啦。虽然整天都大炮我,不过还好啦……知道他是闹着玩的。哈哈!

前几天跟某某人讲电话讲到5点才睡,8点又起床。哇唠e!隔天痘痘马上出来。而且还2颗啊!T.T 糟糕…丑死人了……还有就是,昨天去买东西,整两百块,omg…………@.@ 好破费啊!还有妈妈寄来的东西都不懂多少钱……我答应自己,一定要尽力!一定要赢!加油加油!话说回来,这个星期没练到歌……怎么办?T.T 谁愿意陪我去K练啊?要钱哦~唉……有人那么好心的话,快点跟我说!哈哈!

最近都很懒……跟你说,都现在我都还没冲凉啊!写完就去冲!我要说的是,tutorials都没做……也没温习功课。好像什么都不会似的。看到gor gor他们做assignment, 觉得自己好惨……所以今天才拉他们快点讨论database assignment。嘻嘻……讨论是讨论好了啦。company background我都还没动到。等下动。(废话,我敢说我没有动!)

就这么多啦……太长看的人都会显。晚安咯!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

bla bla bla2

I don't know what to say to myself instead of "I'm fine".

I'm trying to be a good girl that is good. (this is considered as rubbish)

Trying to be a good child of my papa and mama, trying to be a good sister for my younger bro.

Trying to be a good and noty mui mui to my gor gor.

Trying to be more kind to my admirers. Though I didn't say anything, didn't say "yes", but you're good. Just I'm not the one for you. Okay? Study!

Trying my best to be an understanding friends, who I really appreciate very much and love.

Trying to get my mood better and better whenever I get into a mad, or during the girl's sickness.

Trying to save my body from all those diseases, pain and whatever.



All my tries are just tries. I might say I'm not a perfect girl, not a good girl that may have all the good things inside me.

I may have an attractive outlook, which it's just a LIE.

I may get a good result, which many think that I'm a smart student, in fact, I'm NOT.

I may treat everyone good, but it's just I THOUGHT I did.

I may say something in a much high pitch, which ppl think I'm scolding? though in fact I'm NOT.

I guess I've did something that's not really good to my friends, which I NEVER noticed it.

I guess when I say something from my heart, which I say what my brain asks, it's NOT a right thing. sometimes it's just too harsh?




All of the above MAY and GUESS of myself, I think all are true. Anyway. I don't think I did anything wrong, or bad attitude or what. I'm quite sad sometimes that my friends sometime do not know me well, after one year +. I totally understanding KS's post. Yeah, she's right.

Gosh, I guess I do not have to change. It's me of my own style. I don't think it harms anyone. Sometimes what I speak out is just a joke. Sometimes I said it's just because I was moody. or maybe I was too tired and it was nonsense to me. Whatever.

I just hope someone may understand me, don't have to be too well. Just know what am I doing, know what am I saying. I don't need any MISUNDERSTAND anymore.




Come to this post. I may say "speechless". I maybe will leave. Maybe will stay. Depends. There's nth much left for me to stay. Neither them, nor him. I've really disappointed of all of them. No, I should say, I've really given up of myself, which is a very... nonsense, not understanding girl. I've totally broken up my life, my relationships. Damn stupid useless girl I am. Yeah, I am.

I just have to continue my life without any reason, without any destiny, which I've lost it long time ago.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Bla bla bla...

Well actually I've lots of things to post here. But now... I've no mood to say anything, coz of somethings.

The happiness or whatever mood that I've just now had past. Well again and again I dunno what to say. I just can say that I'm totally a moody girl for these days. It can be coz by a person, coz by a single thing, or coz by some words from someone. I dunno. I don't say it's bad. Actually it's not too bad as I have to be who I am, not the a girl that others want. I guess I'm right for this moment. I don't have to listen so much from the anonymous nor friends. I'm not saying I'm right for all the times. Human makes mistake. But all I know is that in every thing that happens, it's not only one person's fault. So, I don't blame myself everytime, but sometimes.

Things that I wanna say just now, don't wanna say it anymore. coz, I don't think it's worth to say anything since it's not a SURE.

Well, I guess that's all for now.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

难忘的初恋情人 邓丽君

我是星 你是云
总是两离分
希望你告诉我
初恋的情人
你我各分东西
这是谁的责任
我对你永难忘
我对你情意真
直到海枯石烂
难忘的初恋情人


为什么不见你
再来我家门
盼望你告诉我
初恋的情人
我要向你倾诉
心中无限苦闷
只要你心不变
我依旧情意深
直到海枯石烂
难忘的初恋情人


是爱情不够深
还是没缘份
盼望你告诉我
初恋的情人
我要向你倾诉
心中无限苦闷
只要你心不变
我依旧情意深
直到海枯石烂
难忘的初恋情人
难忘的初恋情人

Friday, October 16, 2009

写心情

前几天妈妈问了那个旧曲重温歌唱比赛。不知道为什么,这次很想去参加。整三年离开那个世界。突然很想很想再回去。虽然实力是差很多,但是,有时候欣赏他们的唱功也很感觉很舒服!尤其是那些很好很好的歌手。也许许多人都不知道,旧曲很多时候都很感人,旋律也很好听。要是没有旧曲,哪来的现代曲?

这次的中南马区赛11月1号,在kuchai lama那边。但是哦!唉……讲到最后,没去了。昨晚妈妈说了一些事情,唉!我只能说,“算了啦!没关系……下次吧!都不重要的。”因为……没有人要载我去啊!!T.T

不能够怪人哦!因为……不是谁的错了。只是,有点失望了。因为我原本真的很想去的。妈妈应该也知道的。妈妈很好,很疼我哦!帮我问了想了好多方法吧?她还很坏的说“等以后你自己驾车,还是叫你男朋友带你去啦!” 哈哈!气死我了……

好久都没有练歌,也没有在台上唱歌了……好怀念以前哦!尤其是小学的时候……

可能人长大了,什么都不同了。但是啊!对唱歌的热诚,我还是一样耶!不知道为什么……还有6天就截至了。…………不知道要怎样。不想去想了。算了吧!反正,妈妈也放弃了。

有谁能帮我吗?T.T 应该没有咯……要是妈妈在,爸爸在,多好啊!他们一定可以带我去。好像以前一样。妈妈……我爱你!嘻嘻……记得以前,她一直载我去这里去那里比赛。虽然哦……比了好久才拿到冠军。老师说“你学了两年才拿到冠军哦!不是因为你不好,是别人的老师当评判。”老师就是不当评判,为了公平!哈哈!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

我还是我

有一段时间都没有更新部落格咯!为什么呢?很忙?没有啦……是没有那个心情去整理。嘻嘻……今天闲着没事做,那个感觉又来了。是怎么样的感觉,可以让我有心情写部落格呢?嗯……可以说,孤单吧!

那个孤单……不晓得。好像……朋友都很远。没有男朋友,这个不是重点哦!因为……恋爱对我来说,好像都没有意义了。我和他的问题,疑问,都解决了。放不放得开,我也不在乎,我只想逃避这一切,会让我心痛得掉泪的这一切。

老天爷,我还是我啊!我其实没有变。我还是那样的。我没有变坏~没有啊……我还是很爱大家,还是很在意朋友。尤其是那个,你知道是谁的。算了,一切……都好像变了。我好像变成一个人了。虽然,现在伤心时哥哥都会陪我,但是……我也许会选择是她来听听我的心声。其实,她知不知道我在乎她?他们知不知道,其实我难过?也许,兴趣不同,让我和他们更有距离了。

每一次,我想跟他们聊天时……他们好像都不太睬我。不是啦……该说他们在忙。我也很想跟他们一起颠……以前的我不会,但是现在我会。因为我真的很想做一些,很颠的事。重要的是,我有试着要跟她聊天,希望……我和她会好一些。但是,她每次说不到两句,就说要做东西咯……到最后,我完全没有借口要跟她聊天。还有,即使是坐在她旁边,看下去,我们好像刚认识的。

老天爷,教教我……我要怎样?我才可以跟她好一些?她有没有在意过我?T.T 我逃避这个问题那么久了。总有一天,我知道自己想要去面对的。而我的心情,就像秋天,在落叶。在这一刻,我好想弹着钢琴,慢慢地……把我混乱的心情和思绪,在黑白琴键上乱弹一场。那样乱的音乐,也许就有人会了解,我有多乱,有多珍惜我们的友情。弹钢琴,就是我抒发伤心的方法。

爱走了……他走了。感觉上,什么都走了。当然,有些人,还在我左右。感谢他们。虽然,我每次都没有说为什么我不开心,为什么我烦。

=) 快写完了。心情收拾了。笑一笑,没什么事请过不了。希望我多一些开心吧!只要唱歌,我就开心了。哈哈!我也不知道为什么。我就是这样。一直都没有变过的,一直收起来的我。

我还是我。

寂寞 好了 蔡旻佑

蔡旻佑 - 寂寞 好了
专辑 :寂寞 好了
作词:张天成 作曲:彭学斌


拼命的上网 闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你让分手就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了 还是一天? 计算着慌张
计程车上的音响 我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏

夜深了我怎麽办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过满天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了 寂寞好了


坚强外表下 我脆弱 情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落
秋天过了 冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光

夜深了我怎麽办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过满天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了 寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜 伤多痛 都释放


夜深了我怎麽办 寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂 想她 念她 恨她
一个人你害怕吗 细数过满天星光
说好永远不分开 多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
没有你 心放空了 寂寞好了


跟大家介绍这首歌!蛮好听的。严格来说,这整张专辑都不错!《发光的简讯》、《小乖乖》、《走》,都很好听。有空不妨去下载来听听哦!=)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

颜琦,我真的好想帮你!

今天接到秀莉的电话,才知道,颜琦的旧病复发了!需要作骨髓移植。但是,骨髓是在美国找到,需要200,000令吉,包扩运输费之类的东西。 天啊!我听了,眼泪都快掉出来了。我不敢相信,在plkn跟我们那么要好,那么活泼,友善,健谈,聪明的她,会接受这么一个考验。我好想好想帮帮她。但是,我的家境……帮得了多少啊?不知道我的朋友们,会不会帮帮她?


光明日报的报道:


(大山腳訊)大馬教育文憑11A優異生楊顏琦,
因患上血癌而被迫放棄到捷克就讀醫學系。
她在接受治療1年的化療後情況有好轉,
原以為可以當醫生圓夢,詎料血癌再度復發,
她目前急需20萬令吉進行骨髓移植手術。


楊顏琦(19歲)於去年5月證實患上血癌,
在今年康復的她,萬萬沒想到自己在重獲健康短短兩週後,再度被癌魔纏上。
楊顏琦在家中排行第三,有一對兄姐及一個妹妹。
父親楊亞華(62歲)雖然是一名建築承包商,
為了女兒的病,他在過去一年半幾乎處於停工狀態。儲蓄幾近耗盡。

楊顏琦先前在檳城醫院共花了約7至8萬令吉醫藥費,
加上生活費及兄弟姐妹的求學費用,楊家已差不多耗盡儲蓄。
她病發後,醫生表示化療已無法壓制癌細胞,
必須盡快進行骨髓移植手術。

由於馬來西亞、新加坡及台灣都找不到適合她的骨髓,
醫生只能往美國尋找,是本地比較罕見的例子。
雖然已經找到骨髓,運輸費及骨髓費價格不菲,
大約需要9萬美金(約31萬3200令吉),
骨髓一旦抵馬,她即在安邦醫院進行手術。
這次的醫藥費估計需要20萬左右,
對楊家來說是個重擔。
他們希望社會熱心人士慷慨解囊,助楊顏琦渡過難關。


出國讀醫夢碎
楊顏琦原本獲得公共服務局獎學金資助,到捷克就讀醫學系,
卻因為患癌而打碎了出國夢。她如今在日新國中就讀中六,
所獲得的獎學金則獲準延遲一年,但日後只可以在馬來西亞繼續醫學課程。
開朗的楊顏琦表示,她在患病初期非常難過,一度十分執著,終日以淚洗臉。
在家人及朋友的鼓勵下,她漸漸學會以平常心看待,並感恩現在擁有的一切。
她指出,在患病期間目睹許多血癌病人離世,令她感慨萬分。
她語帶哽咽地說,希望本身康復後可以繼續深造當醫生,將來幫助那些和她一樣遭遇的人。




有意捐助楊顏琦的熱心人士,
可把義款交到光明日報辦事處
以轉交《光明公益金》處理
支票背面請註明捐助楊顏琦
光明日報.2009.09.28


要是不想到光明日报办事处,可以联络我。如果大家有能力的话,请帮帮我的朋友...
真的...非常...谢谢!



颜琦,加油哦!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Exam has gone

hooray! Finally the boring exam has gone. =) The bore notes I can throw it into the box. It's nice to have them in a box, easier for recycle soon. haha!

All the exam papers I could say, not so easy, but not so hard. The one that I can't do the most is .... Well, again. English paper. T.T I don't udstd how come my english is sooooooo "good". :-(
Again and again, CGPA falls because of the languages papers? God. I wonder if my english can be as good as his, then I can write understandable essays for the paper.

Speaking about statistics, I guess it is the easiest paper for us. I hope I didn't sense it wrongly? I finished the paper at 3.25pm, and I double check the calculation with my cute calculator. At the moving average, I wrote 5 instead of 9. Walau! I was certainly nervous at the moment as the time was going to finish. BUT... God blessed me. =)

I went out to green box with those seniors. May say they aren't really counted as seniors. They retain. Alright. I can't say I have no fun there, instead they're quite nice ppl and easy to get along. What I wanna complain about the other day's thing is the greenBox's sound system and the mike with wire. Not green box's problem, seniors problem neither. Just my problem, coz I myself really unlike the blur blur sound system, which considered as not good, and the mike with wires. Don't ask me why. Because I also don't know. haha!^^

Yesterday, went out with my ding ding them. hehe. Went to red box. K again.haha! Well, I don't know why yesterday I felt sing not enough. Ding ding too. Just got a feeling like the time passed so fast. I guess the the most pity person is chin hau. If I didn't wrong, he sang about 5 songs only. haha! our lovely ding ding of course knew almost all the songs. She's certainly great. =)

Oh ya. Ks. haha! She sang until....haha! because.... she sang too much songs which are in high pitch. and finally she couldn't reach other song's high pitch anymore. "zao im" haha! I wasn't mean to laugh at her. Just feel funny. ( Hope ks doesnt mind of what I said.)

Sushi king's lunch ^.^









(other photos are taken using chin hau's camera.)

Friday, September 4, 2009

Good luck for exam

It is the last day of preparation for calculus and discrete mathematics today. Well, I met some friends in library. I guess all of us are quite nervous of it. Finally I learned how to prove using the three methods. Hopefully tomorrow I can do the paper well. =)

Today as usual I studied with kk and wl. After breakfast with ch, we went to library. Oh god, the rain was too heavy and we had to walk to D block there, it's far, dudes! =.="' The wind blew, the rain water splashed over me. I felt a cold after all.

The library was not crowded at the time. I sat down beside gor, started my study. Suddenly my heart beated unfrequent and I was hardly breath. I couldn't solve the question well. I wasn't in a good condition. I guessed, I was going to sick again. The air-conditioner and the cold whether made a really freezing environment there. My fingers were merely freezed, and I saw gor kept on shivering. =)

I went upstair to ask DCO top student about the proving using contradiction. After several explanation, I get how to prove using that, and using contraposition. hehe~ Maybe I may say I'm not really stupid at all. xD

From someone's mouth, I knew that he's a good and responsible student. He's quite kind also, willing to teach people what he knows. Well, gor praised me that I'm a good coursemate as I am willing to teach kk and wl. What I told him is true. That is me. That is exactly what human did, right?

I don't think too much today. Tomorrow is the first day of exam. As usual, little fever caused by examination stress and nervous. Hopefully I will be fine. ^^

Wish DCM2 , all the best tomorrow. Good luck and add oil. God bless us.

As my name, luck +, or the luck is always good, by our sides. Love all of you.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

我爱大家

今天又有免费的晚餐。哈哈!真感谢他们两个……不知道怎样就给我wat到了两个晚餐。哈哈!谢谢谢谢……有点不好意思了tim。一走进kfc,看到很多马来人等着开斋。我们却不理会,坐在中间吃……=.= 都是他的错,选那么中间,还说是故意的。…………好像很不好咯……

今天终于都开始读书了。终于把他,和我最近的烦恼全部都抛开,暂时抱书。遇见了几个朋友。最搞笑的是,那个谁(学pt的词,嘻嘻),跑过来捣乱。=.="' 没关系啦……他还蛮搞笑的,好像很喜欢笑酱,还不断讲wl笨蛋。哈哈!是开玩笑啦,不过…………=.="'可怜wl咯。=)

话说回来。不知道何时开始,我和大家的关系,开始松松酱了。我开的玩笑,不好笑,很冷……我说的话,没关系。我尽力融入他们,但是我还是好像森林里的矮树,永远都到不了好像他们那个高。我开始怀疑自己,开始不了解自己。不知道在别人眼中的自己,更不知道自己是怎样的人。

我有点想念上个sem……开始怀念之前拥有的友谊。

现在的我,就好像某个他之前一样。一直觉得很伤心,却不知道要怎样去挽回。也许我想太多,也许事实是这样,我不晓得。但是,我不喜欢。不喜欢这样。

很想很想要挽回我和我一直以来很珍惜的那个人的关系。但是……好像都无法挽回了。不知道为什么,我越珍惜的,就是要这样的离开了。心里那个也这样,珍惜的这个朋友也这样。

也许大家都不知道……我有多珍惜她,也许……对他来说,我不是我想象的那么要好。只是我一直以来,都非常地珍惜她。不懂……很烦,很乱。

不知道为什么最近那么多事让我烦。我的烦恼,有人看得出来……但是,他也不能帮我什么,不是吗?连我自己都帮不到了。因为……那个距离……越来越远。那道隔墙,越来越厚了。

真的真的希望我暂时不要想这些。专心考试。但是……困扰着我的两件事,却是我一直以来很注重的。天啊!不要叫我难堪,不要让我彷徨。就是读书,读书。

祝大家考试顺利。我爱大家。

Monday, August 31, 2009

JanamDindiVetai, Pinky

Though it's tiring day. But I still have to blog it. Else, I won't be blogging it anymore.haha~

It was pinky's birthday. As I promised, I went to pinky's house for the celebration. About 4 sth, I went to wangsa with wenny and went to KL Sentral and met PT and YF there. Changed KTM, went to Kajang. Pinky fetched us after that.

Pinky's house is really big, I just can say, it's like how the rich people's house looked like in the movie. =.=||| What shocked me is that, there's a corner like bar. Oh god. Rich guy.

We ate "sew kai yek", the fish and hotdogs which "burned" by my guy friends. I really wanna thanks to Michael who made me lots of food actually. haha! Hopefully Sharon doesn't jealous huh. There are also some food that cooked by pinky's relatives. His high school friends came too. I guess I just knew two of them, since the girls came so late.

Well, I ate two chicken wings, one piece of fish, and I don't know how much hotdogs(quite a lot). XD Drinking of the coca-cola made me felt too full.haha~

After eating, Wenny and me went into the karaoke room play cards with pinky's high sch's friend and his cousin. Oh boy, pinky's cousin won frequently! T_T wenny and me lost usually. I don't know how he played the cards ... ??? Having chit-chat with them, and soon pinky them came in, I had lots of fun there.

Speaking about KK, he was a little bit funny actually. I guess if pinky asked him to go, he will go, pity him alone in house. Keep on saying pinky is bad, didn't call him. Sigh, Pinky doesn't mean that actually.

Until about 1 sth, after bathing. I receive some sms from someone, which made me feel nervous and happy for the moment. I promised him do not tell anyone about this. So, I just can say, I still love him.

TO ALL FRIENDS WHO WENT TO PINKY'S HOUSE :

I really wanna appologize for my moody condition today, especially this morning. I really do not meant to do it. But you know... I'm so sorry, especially to Pinky. I hope all of you can forgive me if I made u unsatisfied with me. I'm so so so sorry.

Lastly, wish Pinky happy birthday, may all his dreams come true. Good luck and we love you.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

考试

用华文写post,很久没写了。一定很惨了……请原谅我渐渐烂的文笔。


这个……应该……每个学生都讨厌。


这个……真得让我觉得很压力。因为……最近出现了几个说我是top student的人。

这个,我不喜欢。它让我想起一些……甜蜜却心痛的回忆。别问我是什么,因为……那些,应该都不重要了。



不晓得是哪一个人发明了“考试”?不晓得是哪个人说要用考试来测量程度。考试……是如此的让我毛骨悚然。



这一次,我没有做好准备。

这一次,我很贪玩。

这一次,我觉得我失败了。

这一次,我会让大家失望了。





事实告诉我……是时候用功了。



























佳,加油!嗯!我可以的。很想得到他的祝福,很想见见他。但是,我说过,不会打扰他的生活。也说过,不会让他再影响我。

所以,靠自己吧!



DCM2加油!嗯……允许我说,CM,加油!也应该祝福一下学弟妹和学长姐。嘻嘻……





















总之……大家加油!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

About Life

It has been a very long time I didn't update my blog. I'm sorry for my blog readers. Sorry, dudes. I was just busy with the assignments and the stupid tests. Well, I did free, yet I've no mood to blog.

Here my mood come. ^.^

A long way back to where I am from,
a girl, which know nothing much on make new friends,
know nothing about what college is,
know a little bit on how do love works.

I came here for study.
Came here to continue my life as a student, as a girl, and as a child of my parents.
I learnt new things.
I learnt to be independent, learnt to communicate, learnt to be humour.

Love leaves far away from me, stay aside. I am back to who I was.
Learn to be more independent without him.
Learn to smile to people though I was unhappy.
Staring at the sky, which has the most long distance away from me.
Tell myself, "I'm okay. He will be back. I'm fine."

Before this, I was thinking how should I continue my life without him.
I wonder why he left me alone, wonder why he had to break his promise.
I want to know lots of things. Start thinking back, how I was to be a gf.
I wasn't a great gf, I guess. I wasn't a good child to my parents, a good student neither.

Time passed. I learnt more things from the people around me.
Knew more fun from the new-made friends.
I know, that is who I should be.
So, I am more friendly and smile is much more than before.

I hope what I've learnt here, in the past relationship, will be remember forever.
I couldn't say I want to have a new relationship.
I just can say, I listen to God.
For God's sake, Im still here, to be who I want to be.

Finally, I want to thank to the person who broke the promise, the person who made me laughed a lot during conversation, the person who asked me for tea drink just now, and all friends that always here for me. I love all of you.

I wish that my friends, who are in love, in relationship, will stay ever last.


Kath


情侣不需要天天见面,天天聊天,是靠一颗了解、关心对方的真心来维持下去。妥协、迁就对方。适时给予关心,陪在对方身边。不要说对方变了,是环境在变,我们都在变。爱是容易,维持最难。试着在对方的立场想想,想想对方的烦恼,会更好一些。

笔于佳

有意义

請先了解我,才可愛上我不要只因垂涎我姿色就愛上我。
因為,很快的,我會年華老去,我的額頭會出現皺紋,
我的身材會走樣,我會青春不再。
不要只因一時的感覺就愛上我。
因為,這種飄渺的感覺太不可靠,生命週期太短暫,
有一天你要離開的時候,你只需要告訴我:因為沒感覺了。

不要只因我柔順就愛上我。
因為,這樣一來,我便失去了表達意見的理由,
我在愛情裡便失去了抗議的權利,只能做一個無聲的子民。

不要只因我的笑容就愛上我。
因為,我從不對外人表現任何不悅,我只對自已人傾訴我的寂寞、
我的傷心、我的忿怒、我的眼淚,只讓我愛的人看見。

不要只因我鬼點子多就愛上我。
因為,我不知道那一天我會江郎才盡,我不知道,
那一天,你又會愛另一個更有才華的人。

更不要因看電影沒人陪、寂寞少個人擁抱、
逛街沒人讓他牽、摩托車後座多個位…
這樣才說愛上我,這樣的需求,太多人可以滿足他,
並不需要非得我來不可。

我要一個了解我後,才說愛上我的人。
了解一個人需要花多少的時間呢?
等你我了解彼此的時候,已經花了多少的時間?
而你,到時候還會不會愛上我?


source from : yun's Blog

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Stay apart from me

Unfriendly
Keeps on telling people
I'm unfriendly
Stay away from me
I'm unfriendly

It's one year+
Knew styles of people around
people around do know my style
The style of
Serious, selfish, and unfriendly

Assignment, college stuff
Drive me mad
Been thinking to quit
Rational is stronger than devil
Angle saved me

Love that I fall
Blissful that I got
All are gone
I guess my heart still
Doesn't wanna admit the truth

The changes that I've made
Make people feel uncomfortable
Yet
Changes do comfort me

The real me
Has been hidden all the way
Long distance from who I am
Deep inside me
There's still one
Who is much weaker from me

All I know is to grab the chance
Grab it while you can
Friends
Relationship
Grab the chance
Appreciate it
Else while you lost it
This world means nothing anymore

Stay apart from me

Friday, July 10, 2009

Just Talking

Sigh. Not satisfy with everything happened on me. Should I say God done unfairly? NO! It's totally my personal problem, my fault! I don't know when I gonna change back to be hardworking and smart again. Tardy for first class every morning. Not doing tutorials, not study, not try my really best on assignment? Yeah! I did it! That's why I said, I'm lazy!

Java assignment had been passed up. The program is not very good. I would say it's not a good work as a conclusion. Poor validation, poor logic and long programming code. Sigh. That's all that I can do in these few days, rush for it.

The test. Sigh again. Discrete math I guess will score higher than statistics. Why? I didn't study statistics! Why? =.=" Lazy and I thought I will know how to solve it. In fact, I've little forgotten about that. Fine. Done. Everything gonna let them go. 'cause things are not coming to a stop! ADIS Assignment, calculus test. Sigh, I don't know what kinda semester is this. Just a word " packed and rush". I need some space to breath please!

I thought wanna go out tomorrow. She promised to accompany me to go if I helped her with the assignment. I did! But does she? Does she remember what she said? Or it's just a talk, not a promise. Whatever. I've used to with it. Whatever. I've calm myself down now. I didn't ask her what she gonna do tomorrow... 'cause I think no matter what, she promised me first. Hasn't she? Yeah! She did!

I just say whatever to her. It's her way. Ok? I've known her for a year more. She's like that. I just can say whatever thing that I've done for her, can't say I don't have to. Just, I take her as my closest friend here. But does she? Maybe she doesn't know anything that I think it's quite important and good enough for me to do it. I'm kinda selfish girl sometime I tell you. That's all that I can say.

I guess I've really no mood to go out with my friend tomorrow. Just wait and see. Maybe the mood suddenly changed? Hmm... Out of difficulties is miracle. =)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Splendid Music of Chinese Orchestra

昨晚,同瑗瑗和David Pang去学院DK A观赏《新乐·心悦》华约演奏会。在柯清龙的指挥下,大家都奏得不错。虽然有些新生会紧张,导致怯场。但总的来说,这小小场的演奏会,已经很不错了!我相信,全国的音乐会会更棒!

演奏会的音乐表:
一 载歌载舞庆佳节
二 赛马(二胡齐奏)
三 山歌(笛子独奏)
四 瑶族长鼓舞曲(大阮、杨琴、大提琴三重奏)
五 送我一枝玫瑰花 (琵琶齐奏)
六 春到沂河 (柳琴独奏)
七 孤独的驼铃声 (小组合奏)
八 战马奔腾 (二胡独奏)
九 达姆·达姆 (杨琴八重奏)
十 美丽的风尾竹
十一 竹歌
十二 欢腾的节日

其中最好听的音乐是《美丽的凤尾竹》。真得很好听,也奏得很好!下一次音乐会,会在11月,使用中国乐器来奏西洋音乐……一定更棒!我一定会去!







Friday, June 19, 2009

Tagged by Sharon

I realise that this tag has not been ask about no.13... =.="' sweat~


Rules and regulation of the tag ; All 20 people must do unless you don't have a blog. Write the names of 20 friends you can think of in your head. And then answer the questions. Say you're guessing if you don't know, but at least guess on all of them. After doing this, tag your unlucky friends to do the same.


1. Henry
2. Sharon
3. Michael
4. Kai Sin
5. Yiun Fong
6. Ikkhen
7. Winnie
8. Joshua
9. Jocelyn
10. Fei Yan
11. Li Ping
12. Jeffon
13. Francis
14. Yee Shen
15. Jessie
16. Henna
17. Yee Teng
18. Pui Teng
19. Wen Yuan
20. Sheau Chyi


1.How do you meet 1?
In high school.

2.What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
I'll never had my jacket and helpless when I need help.

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
I won't let it happen and it's quite impossible.

4. Have you seen 17 cried?
Never. But she did cry.

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
Oh, Gosh. Neither Kai Sin nor Henna is lesbian.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
Of course she's though she seems little bit dark.

7. What's 2 favourite colour?
Blue. She likes blue.

8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
Erm... If it means speak, it's two years ago. If not, on her birthday.

9. What language does 8 speak ?
Mandarin, English and Hokkien.

10. Who is 13 going out with?
Me? Haha~ He has no gf yet.

11. Would you ever date 17 ?
Hmm.. never.I'll date her.

12. Where does 18 live?
KL. Stays in TARCollege's hostel.

13. What is the best thing about 4?
She knows lot of information that I do not know. Usually she gets ideas for me in assignment.

14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
We've not met up for long time, when is your holiday, Teacher Puah?

15. What is the best thing about 20?
She's helpful.

16. Have you ever kiss 2?
Oh! Never... Michael won't let me, isn't it?

17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
Her humours during vacation to my house.

18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
This Sunday or Monday.

19. How is 7 different from 6?
They're totally different. 6 is guy 7 is girl.

20. Is 2 pretty?
I think so. If not, Michael won't fall in love on her, and another guy did so.haha!

21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
Not so friendly girl. But she is.

22. How did you meet 3?
In collge.

23. Is 2 until 21 is your best friend?
is there 21? =.="' Some yes, some was past.

24. Do you love 1?
Everyone knows it.

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
Of course I did. She's my classmate.

26. When was the last time you saw 16?
Two years ago.

27. Have you been to 5's house?
Oh, never, even Wangsa's house.

28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
Not sure. Depends on our holiday.

29. Are you close to 11?
Quite close actually. She's too friendly to me. Love her so much~

30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
Yeah. With others.

31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
Never. He's so kind!

32. Would you give 19 a hug?
I guess I'll.

33. When have you lied to 3?
Never. No points to lie to my class rep.

34. Is 11 good at socializing?
Yes she is. She's friendly!

35. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
True friend.

36. Has 1 met your parents?
Yeah, of course.

37. How did you meet 1?
This is the 1st question right? =.="' Alright, it's fate,ok?

38. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
Nope, never. I'm not a rude girl. :-p

39. Do you live close to 14?
Hometown? Not really far. Now? He's in Kampar.

40. What is 16 favourite food?
Hmm..... Not sure about that... Henna will not blame me.hehe.

41. What kind of car does 1 have?
His mum's? Kancil lo... His bro's? Vios. His sis's? dunno.

42. Have you traveled anywhere with 12?
No~ He's my senior in high school.

43. If you give 1 a RM100, What would he spend it on?
Ask him la... I never ask him.

Sleep in Discrete Maths Class

Woo~ Guess everyone knows who is this... Can't blame her you know? Discrete maths class is really quite boring. It's not because of the lecturer, she's pretty enough and friendly enough to attract our attention. Just the 0 and 1 digit, or known as the binary code, and the complicated logic, makes us suffer. No choice, we still have to take it. =.="'

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Facebook Society

My friends and I are busy with the facebook's games these days. Pet society and restaurant city. See this! After lunch......




Computers gathering for facebook's games.





Busy with games wor... Don't disturb!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

A Picture

Recognize all those people inside?haha~just guess.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Whatever

It's a rainy day today. I went to college as usual. Afterwards, I went to wangsa maju branch CIMB bank for cash deposit. As usual, I wrote on the paper and gave the money to the cashier there. But, it was unusual that, he asked me to deposit using machine, save my 50 cents. So I said it's okay, and I give him one ringgit.



Out of my expect, he gave me back the things and asked me to go to machine. Oh damn god. I just answer I didn't know how to do it. Actually, it's just simple thing and I was lazy to do so. The most important point that I don't wanna do that is because I never do it with the machine, I worried if I did something wrong... and something happen... and my 500ringgit gone? No way!



However, he still wanted me to do it with the machine. Sigh. Anything wrong if he helped me to do it? I don't know. He asked someone to help me with the machine, and I heard one of the cashier there, which is a girl, said "Huh? Ada lagi tak erti guna mesin? KL ni!Ahstaufaulazi...." I just pretend I didn't hear that.



First : I'm not KL girl. I grew up in a small town. In my place, they usually use people to do work, and they're friendly, they won't get laugh on the people like that.



Second : All money transaction are done by my mum and dad. All I did is just 50 ringgit or 100 ringgit little cash deposit here, and TBR here they still use people. How do I know that they're so mind that MACHINE MUST BE USED, MUST SUBSTITUTE THEIR WORK? Moreover, there're no customer at the moment.



All I would say is just ... shy? yeah, a little bit. damn? Of course!!!!



Now let's talk about result...



B+ for the stupid BM Lanjutan. Well, it's better than my expectation. So, spechless. Yet, I'm quite disappointed with this result. I promise, I won't get anyone affect my study else. I'll try my best to get the best result.



I won't be thinking so much, since he's still with me. I know what he thinks, just like what I think, don't it? I'll always here for him, whenever, whatever, wherever, and however he needs me. So, let the past be the past. Let the our future be more bright, I can see it's not far from us.

Monday, May 25, 2009

My Crazy Friends in Red Box


CL and Lew are.....don't know what they were doing.



CL sang truth to WY...



Hoo~ CW and Lew sang love song....




CL again... He loves all friends...He loves guy as well...Sigh.


Well~CL's food was not that much as CH and Lew's food. They really ate lots of food. RM10 is reasonable.



The most common scene in red box. hehe.

Have fun there? Quite. I could say I spend too much... Anyway, I won't blame anyone accept myself because I really shouldn't eat at canteen 2. sweat~

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

我听见有人叫你宝贝

现在慎重地为大家介绍一首歌,就是林健辉的《我听见有人叫你宝贝》。这首歌,他的歌名就足以让我觉得很伤感。不知道怎么的,如果你听到有人叫你心爱的另一半宝贝,那你的心,一定会很痛。这首歌,我第一次看到它的歌名,我的心就很痛,很想哭……再听听……觉得心湫得更紧了。林健辉没唱得怎么样……也许是意境,词义,很衬我的心情。歌词如下:



林健辉 - 我听见有人叫你宝贝

词:李宗胜 曲:李宗胜

你问我为什么 不再给你安慰
在寒风中漫步有家不回
好几天不见面也无所谓
你问我为什么 把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你问我为了什么 开始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要说我做得不对
不要说你永远不会
因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝
不要说这是个误会
请不要在我面前流泪
因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝
你让他叫你 宝贝



“我”这样做,是不是因为他希望“你”跟叫他宝贝的人开心和幸福?“我”很伤心,喝酒。但却很忍心地这样对“你”,因为,“我”爱“你”!